This better not turn out to be some bait-and-switch copypasta that ends with "OPEN THE DOOR / GET ON THE FLOOR / EVERYBODY WALK THE DINOSAUR" or the fresh prince theme song...
What I want to know is ................... Did you ever get the disposable camera? You could get one in Jacks World on 45th, or pretty much any Duane Reade.
I've been thinking about what you wrote for a while now. You seem to be making a lot of impulsive, emotionally driven decisions. Maybe you can get yourself to hold still for a while and reflect, before giving in into the impulse. Try to imagine how you'd react to this impulse in other times. Is there someone outside of your direct family that has your best interests at heart you can talk with, tell this story to? And I don't mean us internet wiseguys on the other side of the world... Best wishes, be strong, and try not to do anything you'll massively regret. Xir
This is why friends don't let friends post on the internet whilst on ambien. -posted from my workplace bathroom. Namaste.