I have a great family, 2 great kids (my son is autistic)and an amazing wife. I suffer from massive anxiety and depression, I have an alcohol issue too. I'm tired of fighting it, I took up cycling 3 years ago and it really does help, it clears my head. I know where I want to be but all this crap holds me back, people judge me because I don't work, the utterly stupid benefits programs paint an awful picture and pigeon hole everyone in my situation. My daughter is doing well in uni and my son had just finished his 1st year in college studying games design so I know I'm not a complete failure but I feel I need some help. Had so much counselling and CBT but nothings helped.