Does society really discriminate against you? I ask innocently as to look at you I would see you as a girl. And I don't see how anybody on a first meeting could think anything or do anything discriminatory against you. Or do you mean you feel discriminated against medically, on account you have not received the answer you seek and you believe everyone else can be given answers? You are right in that it is hard for us to understand, for people are motivated by different things and we all seek different answers in life. People in this thread are just trying to help you. But sometimes you can come across very dismissive and almost defeatist of this help. For example i saw a friend had loaned you money, what an amazing and kind thing to do! But the way you wrote about it and your situation, it seemed like you expected that? Like others have said, you seem to expect alot. Whether thats born out of frustration or not, it could well hinder you in your aim to get a definitive answer.