I didn't take this as hard as I thought I would initially. I thought I'd be really upset, I'd cry, but there was just nothing. It's the result I thought more likely. Today feels like it's really hit home. Feel hopeless, pointless, angry. Started trying to see if I could track him down online and fire off at him, stopped myself though. Feel super agitated, that kind of feeling of tearing your own face off. I don't think I'm gonna do anything stupid, has crossed my mind though. Hopefully venting will take a weight off.
Have a good vent to us! It might not the decision you wanted (or should be) but we can at least listen and/or join in with your rant
Yeh I could talk to my brother. It's difficult to explain how I'm feeling. It's like too many emotions happening at once. I went outside for a quick lean in the sun. Feel a bit better now
Vent away, publicly or via PMs. People here, myself included, are usually more than happy to talk. You probably already know this, but that would be a bad idea and wouldn’t achieve anything. But you reined yourself in, which is a good level of self-awareness and self-control. Though I understand the knee-jerk reaction, I really do. Age, and perhaps wisdom (questionable as mine may often be), has somewhat tempered my ADHD impulsivity, but it still happens. That, and the rejection-sensitive dysphoria that’s common to ADHD, still makes for some very strong knee-jerk reactions. It will never go away, all I can do is try to recognise when it’s happening and take a moment to be mindful.
Had to pull myself together for a call with the corporate card provider, resolved a lot of stuff so got a better feeling going now. Thanks all
@The_Crapman - glad you're feeling at least a little bit better. We are open and ready to receive venting if necessary. Hang in there bud
vent, shout or even better in my opinion scream your head off (for me its the cellar in winter or a nice 15 motorbike ride away in warmer weather) we are here to help
Found myself back in the pit of despair. Shoulder slowly deteriorating, the most minimal of movements in the wrong vector make it feel like it's about to pop out, makes doing pretty much anything difficult. Pain now almost constant, having to take as much co-codamol as I can in an attempt to keep it in check, but my tolerance for it makes it a bit mute and I think is giving me headaches. Recreational pain killers not an option with DC Mrs Crap in tow, and to be fair that'd probably just put me in a bigger hole mentally. Had my pre-op assessment last Monday and was told I should get my date through by the end of the week, did not so called the consultant's secretary, who advised I wouldn't likely even get a date for about 5 weeks. She's allegedly put me on the shortlist for cancellations, which is all well and good, but that means I don't know how long I have to get all my process notes typed up, and typing leads to more pain so have been trying to spread it out as much as pain allows. I know it's not my job to ensure things are done in my absence, but I actually give a ship about my job and the work, and with year end looming it couldn't be worse timing. I am really dreading the op, it's possible consequences, and the 2 months of complete incapacity after. Swear I'll probably wake up with them having amputated my good arm
Chin up, mate. There is the possibility that the op could be a huge success. If you need to rant/ramble and just bounce words off someone, other than the missus, pick one of us and go for it. If we can't muster anything useful to say, we can always fall back on taking the piss and general childish behavior.
"taking the piss and general childish behavior." Would make an excellent autobiography title The whole herbia shenanigans has totally fried my brain over anything medical. Filling in the questionnaire form for the pre-op I ran out of space for prior operations, it's had never phased me before all that ****, a&e was my home away from home. Now I just have crippling fear every time something new crops up. I've had the same surgery before, it was very successful and held out until I tried playing tennis again and the shoulder went pop on the 3rd or 4th serve. Stupid really, should have just accepted my fate as a fat-nack, how dare I try and exercise
Ditto what @David says Andy. Can't imagine what it's like but we're about if you want to rant or have your leg pulled, whichever you need Damn it dude! Don't do sport other than something like swimming! No tennis, no squash, no ten pin bowling!
If it helps any, you can get legal THC on private clinics. I’ve looked into it for my other half as we need something other than opioid for her as the side effects to of prolonged opioid also make things worse for her, but they’re the only thing that actually help her. If you want any pointers let me know. But it’s all on Google. Aquafit! And just keep the dodgy shoulder still or very limited. The water resistance means it’s good cardio and it moves muscles all over the body.
My wife does aquafit because her knees are more or less knackered, she can’t have knee replacements. Not only is the exercise good, she says being in water makes her feel free.
Lots of shoulder trouble in my family. A couple of rotator cuff repairs and I've had a frozen shoulder on both sides. One needed operating on and extended recovery including hydrotherapy. I hope it goes well when you get there Andy, and take it easy activity wise. I thought I'd never be able to kayak again, but am back paddling with a bit of care
I have previously self medicated with magic herbs for a broken coccyx, great stuff, but screws my head over too much nowadays so even acquired legally I'd be very hesitant. Tennis was fine until I tried bumping up serve speed beyond 50%. Post this I will give it a miss and stick to golf, which doesn't put my arm or shoulder into danger territory. Swimming/aquafit stuff sounds good though, did used to love a good swim.
