It feels so surreal, I cant believe it...I only saw him last night as I spent hours trying to fix my partners router...he seemed completely fine...there was nothing reportedly wrong with him...he had smoked most his life quite heavily and he had a pint a day...he was 65 last september...I think that it all caught up with him now. My fiance phoned me in the early hours at 5am crying "I think my dads dead"...what?! "hes not breathing, the paramedics are trying to revive him"" I panicked and grabed the first set of clothes I could and rushed to get to her..she opened the door and I could see right down the hallway until the end of the house were the bathroom was...paramedics trying frantically pumping him and trying to revive him...they tried for 25 minutes none stop...I just knew he was gone when they carried him past us to take him to the hospital...his eyes were open staring into nothing...there wasnt any life in him. He had collapsed in the bathroom..he had got up to go and my partners mother heard a thump...she investigated a couple of minutes later to find the bathroom light still on...she tried to open the door and couldnt...he had collapsed behind it...they struggled to open it and as they finally did, my partner tried to give him mouth to mouth and pump his chest as the operator on the phone told her... He had a medical last year and they said he was fine...everything seemed fine...but I cant help but think all those years of smoking and drinking...they caught up with him and his body finally gave in from it all...sometimes our bodys have reached their limit. They dont know what was the cause yet...they are doing a post-mortem tommorow and from there we will await the results...I think his heart gave up though. I feel so horrible for my partner...we were going to get married this august and we still will..but this has just made things even more complicated...he was going to be a grandad in april too from his sons wife... I'm ok....but I worry for my fiancee...what do I do to help her through this? how can I support her? What do I say?! I have thought about the future for months, planning our lives, the materialistic things, the adventures me and my fiance will have on holidays together....but this is surreal...people dying with no warning?! if it was some ailment or issue he was suffering from over time...we could accept it or deal with it...but in the blink of an eye!?! If anything I have learnt from this wakeup call...is not to plan too ahead....I will tell my family I love them everyday, let them know how happy I am, what they mean to me...no regrets over missed opportunities that way?