Other What's ruining your life right now?

For my 10 years I got £100......
Got £150 for 15, can't wait for the 20 year bonus, can you guess what it is?

 

P45?

 

16 weeks off?! Bloody hell…!

So… er… how easy is the immigration process these days…?

 

We just get extra holiday days added to our yearly allotment for time served but ONLY if you are on an older contract, new starters get a certificate at landmark years until they hit 20 years or so and then there's a gift selection thing.

I got 1 extra day at 5 years, 2 additional ones at 10, another at 15, and I shall get one more at 20 for a total of an additional week off a year. My colleague in the same role as me will not get any of that.

 

Is there a problem in Australia, with people being booted out of jobs before they get to 10 years?

 

Squirrels got into my house. It's winter. There's snow on the ground. I have an aluminum ladder that would reach the area they are getting in to fix the issue, but power lines run along the back of my home (literally mounted to the backs of my and the other rowhomes). The lines are insulated, but I'd definitely screw it up and kill myself. So, I'm going to have to hire someone to do this and I'm broke AF because I'm still in the middle of my divorce that will never end.

 

Not that I've heard, my mates certainly bang on about it.

It's a great retention scheme though, stay for ten years and you get a shed load of paid leave.

 

I learned today that there is leave and paid leave for "domestic violence" in Australia.

I don't know if that's for recovery from it or for committing it?

 

Both, however the locations may be different...

 

Where/how have I been?

Ill. For the most part. Have something going on neurological side and became a cane user few months ago. Already been wobbly for 20+ years but balance has gotten worse over the last two three years so had to start using a cane for support. Yes, been in MRI a few times. Also became somewhat of a recluse as getting about is not that easy these days

Spoiler

95% chance I have MS so there we go

Then there's that move happening within two weeks as my current LL started identifying as a problem. Big positive is I can get back at her, documented harassment, more than a handful of right to rent checks not done, holding fee that became a deposit that is not protected etc. Its a long list

Reached a breaking point. Going to take a long while to get back to where I was mentally, physically I can't as that's denied for me. Trying to process and accept the fact I'm disabled isn't easy

But I'll live

On the somewhat of an upside. A few things: have been educating myself about even more on networking, Linux servers + whatever you can run on those and Big Ouch is a thing next month

 

In part. If redundancies are being made, they will go for people on 9 years. Pretty hard to fire people over here though.

 

Wow, that sounds incredibly difficult. Especially to have all that happen at this time. Hopefully the rental thing works out pretty quickly and the education piece sounds great!

 

I've got the lurgy.

Managed to shiver myself to sleep last night, but it's difficult to stand for more than a few minutes at a time. Drinking lemon, honey and hot water, which is definitely making me feel better. Heart's racing too.

 

Mum had her discharge meeting at the hospital yesterday. She can't get Continuing Healthcare (NHS funded), and because she's such an anomaly and they have no idea of her life expectancy she doesn't qualify for any of the stuff for people with less than 12 months left. Even though she may well be on her way out very soon. She can't go into a residential care home, my only choices were multiple live-in carers, with extra carers coming in 4 times a day. Which is absolutely extortionate and would be really stressful for myself and my Dad (and the senile stray cat that's taken up residence in our house). So the only realistic option is a nursing home that caters for complex, advanced dementia. Which, it turns out excludes all the care homes I have about 15 minutes walk away - bugger. It also means it will be around £2,000 a week. How people pay for this I have no clue. She has savings (that I need to get out of ISAs and shares) that will last about 2 or 3 months before she runs out, then I have to apply for help with funding and because our council covers an enormous borough, apparently it may not be very fast. I have 0 clue what I do to cover the time between the money running out and her getting help.

It's killing me with the stress of it all. Not only am I distraught from effectively losing my Mum with no warning to a whole bunch of diseases/issues that should've taken years to slowly develop. But I have to panic like crazy about money every single day now for the rest of my life. I've already done that for 30 odd years. I'd hoped it would get easier! Never have I wanted to just disappear so much in my life. I don't want to deal with any of this. I wish she'd had no savings like my grandma, it made that so much simpler. Straight into a care home, NHS paid for it. Boom.

Unfortunately, my friends aren't being very helpful as everyone's giving me advice to talk to social workers, etc. I'm not sure if they don't understand that I very literally did speak to all the professionals yesterday at the meeting and got the advice from them. Or they think I'm just making it all up as I go along. I keep being told it won't be that expensive, but, it will. She's advanced dementia, with advanced parkinson's AND she's just had 2 strokes back to back. She's way up there on the care level required.

 

Its a lot to process. I've been though a lot in life but these few turns in life have not been easy. Was I okay getting the news from neuro? Far from it. Am I okay now? No, but I'll live. Call it an obstacle instead of a wall. I'll get over it

Life goes on

 

One of my 4TB NAS drives has "degraded" after "only" 35408 hours of 24/7 use.

Just bought 4 new ones for £411, to be delivered on Monday, nervous wait until then as the other three are the same age.

Thought about upgrading to 8TB drives but (1) I am only using 4TB data across the 4 drives and (2) cost.

Could of done without the unexpected expense in January!

 

Woke up this morning feeling cold, which I put down to my bout of flu I'm still in the middle of battling. Turns out overnight the boiler had cut out because the condensate outlet and gas flue had iced over. I poured some hot water over the condensate pipe and dislodged the ice, but the gas flue is another story - ordered a hair dryer to deal with that tomorrow as I'm pretty sure I shouldn't pour hot water down the gas flue. So, although I can at least get hot water now, the boiler cuts out after a couple of minutes when I try to activate the central heating; probably a safety feature to ensure I don't die of carbon monoxide poisoning. In the meantime, I have a fan heater to keep me moderately warm

The irony of the conditions being too cold for my central heating to work is not lost on me.

 

I once lit the log burner after weeks of it being unused, a dense plug of cold air was blocking the flue so the smoke started backing up into the room. I guess old tech isn't immune either!

 

I'm exhausted, I need a break.

I need some time away on holiday where I don't have to worry about anything else, but I don't see how that's going to happen any time soon. We're round my mother-in-law's to help her out several times a week, my mother still has all her house b-s going on that she needs me for (which is only getting worse), my other half still needs a lot of support because her recovery has been very slow, and we have no one to look after the cat. Even if we could solve any/all of that, all our disposable income is supposed to be going towards saving a deposit.

Right now the last day, week, even year, feels like a big grey blur... There's no joy in anything, there's nothing satisfying, nothing fulfilling, no achievements are made and no goals are met, there's just... 'existing'... Dragging one foot in front of the other for the rest of my life until... nothing... no more existence, just... nothing.

I need a ****ing break.