Other What's ruining your life right now?

Broke my leg 9 weeks ago and am still off work. Have run out of sick pay and holiday pay so no pay for me at the moment. Have also managed to put on 9 kilos by sitting on the couch doing nothing (unable to move) so the new clothes I bought online that arrived today no longer fit me. Le sigh.

 

One of my closest friends likes a girl. He hasn't done much about it.

Said girl randomly jumped on me during a party two nights ago. It was really odd because she normally has it very much together but I guess that's alcohol for you. Being the bro that I am, I gently rebuffed her but she cornered me two more times before I finally decided to call it a night and get out of there.

I don't like people. Too much trouble.

 

-double post-

 

If there was ever something awkward, that would be it. Good on you though.

 

That's rough. I've known a few folk in the past that have had the same, one a marine that had only just got hatted & took a bad fall off a tower.

Careers all came good in the end, hopefully your injury isn't debilitating in civvy street.

 

Everything.

Being 21 and having seronegative spondyloarthropathy which mimics rheumatoid arthritis. For the most part, this no longer affects me because of the medication I'm on, but because of it, I lost my old job. I stopped working last September and up until roughly May I haven't been feeling the same. Now, the company I used to work for has been bought out, and if I wanted to work there again I'd have to work full time. I only worked there before because I could get a ride with my brother.

I don't drive, I've had my g1 license for 4 years, probably only spent 10-12 hours behind the wheel. It terrifies me, and people don't seem to understand that. When my mom asks if I want to drive her to the store I just think of parking and psych myself out. I did driving school and it was fine, but I get so paranoid that I don't even want to drive. To make matters worse, most of my friends live close to each other, but far from me. I hate having to inconvenience someone to drive me to my friends house, and wait up for me, or have friends drive me home. I know as I drive more, this fear will go away but right now it just scares the daylights out of me.

I have no motivation. I'd consider myself shy and a bit overweight, I don't really meet new people and I've gained some weight. I'd love to lose weight, but I just can't be committed. I have everything I need at home (weights, treadmill, time) but I just can't find motivation to put the effort in. I know I need to, but I can't. I've had gym memberships and I've tried going with my brother and it failed. I wasted a lot of money on something I barely used. I feel really lazy about everything.

I just feel very "meh" about everything right now. I've got one more year of university than I'm going to be chucked into the real world, and forced to find a job in this terrible economy. Even though IT is in demand I feel like I've learned very little in my university program and I don't even know how I'm going to address the job hunt. A lot of small things have just gotten to my head and now I just feel overwhelmed. I try to stay positive, but I just get into slumps.

 

You need to start off with small wins to build up your self esteem, maybe you can have a member of your family to drive you to somewhere remote so you can practice your driving? Thats how i learn. (i failed my test twice and still have yet to pass, im only starting to think about taking it again almost 6 years later!)

As for the fitness how far away do your friends live? could you not try walking to them? Walking is a brilliant way to exercises without feeling like you are. i walk everywhere and quite regularly walk the 5/6 miles to my girlfriends house.

Trust me crack one thing at a time, get the ball rolling then you will start to feel better about yourself.

You cant physically work on all of your issues at the same time, so there is little point in having them all swirling about in your brain at once.

Pick one thing, get into a routine, nail it, reflect...then nail the next issue

 

Well we play basketball usually twice a week and we play for a good 2-3 hours. I've also started playing tennis and that's a few times a week for 2-3 hours also. All my friends are 30-40 minutes away and though I don't mind the walk (I've done it intoxicated many times) the heat right now makes it very discouraging (It's roughly in the 30's and with humidity pushes it into the 40's). Another issue is being summer, I'm home all day so all I end up doing is sitting around and eating unless I'm out playing sports. Once school starts I'll be up and about more so I usually end up losing 10 pounds or so. I just wish I had more dedication to have a more permanent solution instead of constantly going up and down.

As for driving, I do drive to my friends house but its only a 5-10 minute drive, and I do it so infrequently. I'm more nervous about parking and stuff. I'm a lot more uncomfortable because I went from driving a puny 4 seat Chevy economy box car to my moms 1997 Chevy venture van, which while not giant is a lot bigger. I just don't have the practice and because I'm paranoid I'm afraid to ask to drive.

It's funny how my mood can really change about things in a few hours. Last night I was feeling very crappy, this morning I'm feeling much better, think it's because I spend far too much time thinking.

 

Facebook has just given me timeline...

Today, brothers, the resistance has fallen.

 

It hasn't been forced on me yet - does this mean that it will be soon? I feel an account closure coming on...

 

After thinking "Naah, I'll just enable it on my account" I felt like a had a brain seizure. I spent the next two hours going through all the **** I have posted for the last 3 years, bit by bit, deleting my online presence.

 

Third day in a row with half the sleep I'd like. My brain feels like it's been replaced with cement and my body feels like it's ignoring half of the inputs it gets.

Friday night I'm up late looking forward to the weekend. Saturday morning I'm woken up early. Saturday night I'm at the bar with some friends and out late, but it's okay because I have Sunday still. Sunday morning I'm woken up early. Sunday evening I head to bed at the normal time expecting to wake for work at the normal time today. I'm woken up three hours early.

I just want peace to sleep... is that so much to ask?

 

Silicone earplugs.

 

I had this problem at boarding school. If you can get a set of moleded ear plugs. they are fantasic and you can not feel that at all. They are 100% worth the money and last forever. Fitting is a bit off though!!

http://www.ultimateear.com/sleeping.php

 

My dad used to wake up at 5am on the dot every morning. Took us years to figure out it was the sound of the first train passing (even though its 250 meters away from our house).

Some cheap earplugs later he now he sleeps like a baby...a slightly overweight, balding middle aged baby.

 

Being turned down a small personal loan, despite having perfect ratings.

 

Ahh i got that a few weeks ago i was known as "the lucky one" when it happened it seemd to squash all my loser-ish facebook crap together.

And like picarro i deleted alot (which turns out to be 99%) of my nonsense...

I did consider deleting my account but some of my friends ONLY use facebook and refuse to use a phone

 

A real bad week for me.

My partners mother fell quite ill on Wednesday night. It was quite severe, so I managed to get him on board a flight to Nashville, TN where his mum was in hospital. She died last night, so I need to travel out there to be with him.

The first flight cost me just over £800 and flights for me are coming up about this price as well. We're not exactly flush these days and I'm trying hard to get a flight out there. I asked my parents to borrow some money (something I detest to do) and the response was "they'll think about it". I'm clearly not wired the same way they are, because if I knew a loved one needed to money to get to their mourning partner, I would give my last penny to help them.

So angry and a feeling of helplessness in my head right now.

 

Contact the airlines directly and explain what has happened and that you already paid full price to get your partner to his mom. They might work something out to help lower the cost. I know they used to do that.

 

Heart surgery has been scheduled for 30th August. Before that though

Appointment at BHI on 13th to meet surgeon again and talk about op.

Appointment at YDH on 16th for discussion about angiogram

Appointment at musgrove hospital on 22nd for angiogram

pre, pre-op meeting with surgeon and anaesthetist on 29th to give consent and whatever else.

Seems like an awful lot of tests and meetings - can't i just give consent for the op and be done with it, don't wanna be chopped and prodded any more than is necessary