Other What's ruining your life right now?

Billy Mays is dead. Your argument is invalid

 

working with incompetent people

 

Billy Mays can't die. He had a lifetime guarantee. its only a matter of time until we get the free replacement in the mail.

 

That's the small detail I'm still working on

 

that post was before i went out last evening.


maybe you should have read my most recent post in the thread.

 

7:40am and I just woke up... barely

 

I used to live near Spalding and work in Peterborough. There is NO IT job market up there at all. I moved to Bristol! Three years on, and I've doubled my Peterborough salary (although granted I am working in a more senior role now as well).

 

trying to lose weight

 

i fuking hate myself atm

I'm 24. I'm in one of the best engieering university in north america and yet I can't get myself to work properly and get decent grades. I've been here for a year and I am still behind where my friends were after only one semester

I am pathetic and ashamed of myself. I have no idea if I am in the right place or not. I already have a diploma in network management but I don't want to be a regular IT. The idea of being everyone's bitch all the time pisses me off. Nobody's ever happy, all they do is complain they should be prioritized because they "have work to do". Fuk this I don't want to be depressed all the time...


...come to think of it I already am...

I... I don't know what to think anymore. With my failure in maths it will be my last chance before I get kicked out. I will be "under surveillance" for a year I think. I don't mind this, I just wonder if it's worth all the fuking trouble.
I am already thousands of $ in dept and it will only get worse.

The more I study and work, the more lost I am.

WHO AM I ?
WHAT AM I GOOD AT ?
WHAT DO I LIKE ?


I have no idea

god damn it I'm so pissed off


EDIT: sorry about my language and all ... it had to come out. I never speak to anyone about this. All they ever say is "I know you can do it". WHAT IF I CAN'T ? WHAT THEN ?

 

More fun times trying to get my own place. Theoretically I make enough money to rent out my own small apartment or a small house (there's a number of tiny homes built around here in the 40s that people rent now) while covering basic monthly bills. I don't need a land line for phone, and I don't need cable TV, just power/water/sewer/internet/garbage. There'd be enough around for me to eat half-way decently as well. Problem is, I'm getting almost zero help from family on it and am at a total loss of what's a good idea and what isn't. I'm always answered with "If that's what you want to do". I don't know if I want to do it if it's going to be a horrible financial mistake that leaves me renting for the next 20 years, or ends with me unable to make payments and having to come running back to my parents. And aside from just getting no help with advice, there's no help financially either. Not that I have it that hard, I pay almost nothing living at home, but none of that support carries over to moving out. If my parents are willing to pay the ~$200 a month to cover my costs at home, why not help that much on an apartment of my own? Just so frustrating trying to figure all of this out.

 

Starting my dream job - and realising that there's no way in hell they should have employed me to do the job - as I pretty much can't, finding out there's no training / induction involved, and realising I should have stayed at my old job as at this rate I'm going to be jobless by the end of the week... (me quitting, they don't seem bothered that I've done basically nothing since I started).

 

Don't hate yourself, maybe engineering just isn't for you. I started out with engineering, but that changed after my first year of college. I did the same thing you did and failed my math class(twice actually). It wasn't because I was stupid or didn't get it, it was because I hated it and had absolutely no motivation. If that is your problem, maybe you shouldn't be going into a career where math is used all the time. Do some looking around for a different career and you might be surprised what you find(I went from civil engineering to being a mechanic...)

Anyways... I hate my life... My girlfriend is pissed. Like I said earlier, the cool manager is leaving, so now I will have to work with the asshole. My mom is being ridiculous(I am 19 and I have a 10:00 curfew unless I am at work... and I close practically every night).

so anyways, family sucks, work sucks, relationship sucks, life is crap. It seems like EVERY aspect of my life is completely shitty right now(at least I have food and shelter, i guess). Oh, and the only reason I can't say if school sucks or not right now is because it's summer.

edit: seriously, someone please shoot me. I just CAN NOT win. I finally get my school/career choice in order and then I just get a landslide of **** coming down right on my head.

 

What would happen if you simply did not obey your curfew?



I honestly don't know if I have a curfew. lol I'm thinking I don't.

 

I've never really known if I've ever had one either. Used to never be out that late anyway so it was a total non-issue. Then I started driving more and actually had money. Came home one night at about 1 am, my parents were a little surprised but the mood was essentially "Oh, you're going to be out late now. Be safe". Since then it's been pretty routine and "I'm going out for awhile" on a Friday or Saturday night means I'll be back some time well past 11pm. They know I don't drink or do drugs and that I don't get along with people who do and as such won't end up crashing and dying on the drive home or getting arrested. And they know I'm too much of a fail-whale to be invited to any sort of real party anyway.

So you might really be one to something with simply staying out late! Chimmy if it's not something your parents frequently bring up or have recently put in place perhaps they don't care anymore if you just... don't respect the curfew

 

LMAO I think thats why my parents weren't bothered when I got home at 2am a few weeks ago.

I guess thats good that they aren't too strict, but its true. I am a fail-whale aswell.

 

Well.. i don't go to college... i work part time at McDonalds... never had a Girlfriend, i have a intel celron.... Im saving up to buy some rope in 3 months after i save up enough money to afford it.

 

Mine kinda gave up on caring about what I do in my personal life when I got home from being out with a girl all night. They asked what we did, being vaguely proud of my 'success', when I had to burst their bubble by admitting we just spend the whole night on her porch talking. Only way to describe it is: "Son, I am dissappoint".

 

LOL my parents would be "Son I Am Proud" if that happened to me.




as for whats ruining my life?

Shot air rifle yesterday and today. Was expecting myself to make the national team and I didn't. Yesterday my score was horrible and not even close to getting me on the team. Today I started out awesome and was on my way to easily make the team. Then halfway through the match I lost my rhythm or something and started messing up. I was thinking I was going to be able to recover and still shoot a high enough score. But I wasn't able to recover.

So now I'm gonna have to go down to Ft. Benning, Georgia this fall to shoot at a competition there and shoot well enough to make the team.

So to summarize that I am very disappoint in myself.

I am rather happy with how I handled myself after failing to meet the minimum score though. I was counting how many points I was dropping throughout the match and was doing a good job of keeping my cool when I shot a bad shot. But once I knew I dropped enough points that I couldnt make the team I completely gave up and didn't even try for the final 10 shots. I was absolutely furious, just about threw my gun onto the ground. But I finished the match, got off the firing line, and put my equipment at my shooting bag, then left without saying anything to anyone. I went outside and took a little walk around the parking lot to calm myself down. No one followed me outside so I don't think anyone noticed I left. Once I calmed down I walked in with a good attitude and a smile. I don't think anyone noticed how pissed off I was.


Besides that my dad is a party pooper. I'm probably not going out tonight (my last night here) because my dad has not been having a good time and i dont want to leave him alone cuz he'll be all sad. he hasnt said anything about it to me but i talked to my mom on the phone this morning and she said he hasnt been having a good time. i could tell he hasnt been too happy but its not my problem he just sits around feeling sorry for himself cuz no one ask him to go anywhere.

hes just like i have been doing in my life. sit around being depressed cuz no one ask him out to do stuff. wish he would just grow up like i have. i have gone out with people the past 4 nights. the only reason I did was because i put the effort into talking to people and asking to hang out with them.



though sadly i leave for home tomorrow and ima end up going back to my old ways of sitting around at home alone.

 

if i didn't obey it, i would start posting in this thread, even more than i already do.

someone kill me please...

 

how so? what can they really do to you?