ignorance is what caused 9-11.. not hate... pure ignorance... and I'll go as far as to say i hate my ex-gf... even so far as to wish she would just die or drop off the face of the earth and stop bugging me every time she gets dumped for being a ****
I don't think I could ever hate my ex... She must have something that made me love her, else she wouldn't have been my girlfriend. I think she could've done anything, and I still wouldn't say I hate her
My ex was very manipulative, and really didn't care about me at all... still to this day I have no idea why I spent 3 years with her... well the last 18 months anyway.
Well first of all thank you very much for your support. It's funny because I felt really flocked up Sunday and yesterday but today it's kindof o.k. Everyone told me I did nothing wrong and it wasn't my fault - even her best girl-friend. And that was very good for my emotional status. I haven't seen her since Sunday and I'm not crying or sulking anymore. She isn't worth it and you're right - if she was willing to cheat on me - I was her first boyfriend, you know what that all means and we were together for 3 years 7 months - then she'll cheat on others aswell. The guy she met can't be held responsable for anything she did, that I've come to accept now. It was her decision and if she want`s to f*** around with other guys and cheat and play around then she can go ahead. I know that noone is as devoted and careing as me because she, whoever she might be is more important to me than any other person and maybe even than myself and she's going to realise that sometime. A female friends who's gone through this crap a couple times told me, she's going to fall pretty steep and her next bf will be an ass ... and she'll never find someone as good as me. I believe that and someday she's going to get played and cheated on and lied to just she did all that to me. Then she's going to know all about it and I'm looking forward to that, it'll be something we call "compensatory justice" here in Germany. I'm not going to see her for a while, but I called her today. I'm not going to let her hurt me anymore cause she ain't worth it ! It's just sad I realized that now and not earlier ... We talked for an hour and we were very open. The guy she met seems to be interesed in her but she doesn't know yet if she want's to see him again or whatever ... yeah well I do, they'll get together and he's not going to be near as nice as I was. She's going to be ****ed by him and do all kind of dirty things with him and then she'll realize she was played ... HAHA ! I'm not sure I'm ready for another relationship but I sure am ready to go out and have some fun with other girls. It's over with "Mr. Nice Guy Fred Who Thinks Of Others First" **** that ... me me me me me from now on till I meet the real "her" !!! Cheers to all you peeps ! And I mean it - if any of you ever come to cologne give me message and I'll treat ya to some nice beer and stuff Cheers Fred
No... not really... she was getting it elsewhere. That's why I really can't understand why we stayed together so long.
Das nehme ich jetzt mal als Einladung About the other stuff: I'm doing the same at the moment and it doesn't really satisfy me...but it's fun to meet new people (girls...) and just enjoy life... Helps one to forget the bad memories and prepares for the next, the right woman
Wo kommste denn her wenn ich fragen darf ? Went to the cinema this evening with a friend of mine. The movie sucked and I almost fell asleep in the middle of it ... I was actually able to eat a whole cheeseburger at McD's which Im quite proud of as I wasn't able to eat anything the past 2 days and the last time it happend I wasn't able to eat anything for two weeks and I lost 10 kg in those two weeks. It is somewhat strange to see other couples happy and cuddling up in the cinema just like we used to do, that did kindof sting. But I suppose time will heal the wounds. Someday she'll realise what she lost and what she'll never have and someday she'll be treated the same way she treated me. But I'm going to be there for her. Because I want to see her suffer just as I did. I want to see, that she knows what it's like and I want her to see, that what she did was mean, selfish and wrong. But I also want her to see that I'm a true friend, even though she did what she did. That let's me keep my head high. I have nothing to regret, I did nothing wrong and it wasn't my fault and I'm a decent person not like her and others she'll be together with. I suppose we'll be real good friends when that happend, because maybe then she might be able to feel something like respect. She's young and naive and she has to gain experience by falling down. She'll have nice partners and she'll have *******s just as I will. I'm not ever going to get together with her again, even if she does realise someday that I WAS the best and noone did more for her than me and that what she did was wrong, but maybe there'll be a special friendship possible then. Time will tell. We might even not want to see each other anymore in a year or so ... who knows anyway ? Life is strange and it defently never goes the way you'd expect it to ... Cheers peeps ! Your fighting Fred
That's right fred, Kick er to the curb... Go get em tiger... Just remember, you never get hit hard when you're looking, it always hits you the hardest when you're not paying attention... In other words, don't look for love, it will find you.
pleanty of fish in the sea my friend....one day she will get hers and then she will know how it feels and hopefully change her ways...One reason I have always loved older women is they have usualy delt with the little girly **** anybody I see stuff... i always loved the lets be friends talk... "lets be friends" - dumping bitch "oh ok let me pick my balls up off the floor where you just stomped on them" - me
Aww Fred, if you need a huggle, you can always pop over here and i'll give you one I am really proud of you man. I wish I'd had your frame of mind when my ex broke up with me (was a year ago last week). You're moving onward and upward! Just a few tips tho.. - Stay away from alcohol for the time being because it will bring out the bad emotions. - Imo, I wouldn't try and be friends with her because you'll find it really hard to get closure. That was a mistake I made. I tried to be her friend and had to hear about every new boyfriend and that really cut me up at times. - I'd stay away from girls fullstop for a while too...go out with your mates. Do things you wanna do
Gee thanks Well point one is o.k. I don't like it that much anyway ! I already know about her new guy and everything and actually I want to know about every new guy, cause I want to be there when she gets treated the way she treated me and I want to see it ! I want to see her suffer the same as I did. And if it starts hurting I can always tell her to shut up and not tell me about it. Yeah ... I'm not too sure about the girls either. I'll just see what my feelings tell me. But you are right. Cheers Fred Oh and it's not that easy even it seems to be. I'm down right now again. But I suppose it'll get better again.
yo dude, don t do that, you will be happy when she get s treated like dirt, but in the unlikely event that she will find somebody she is happy with, even short term it will hurt you...it s not worth the hurt hoping that eventually the guy will cheat on her and you will enjoy it. better forget her...and see about her sis or best GIRLfriend as it was suggested before by the nice folks here ...
don't hate: apathize. it's all about emotional baggage, man. you can carry a warm fuzzy ball of love, a heavy spiked blisteringly hot ball of hate, or you can carry nothing at all. which seems easiest here? just phase her out. if she's not good enough not to run around on you, she's not good enough for you at all. go ahead, boost your ego, nobody will blame you. be proud of who you are. you are the awesomest guy you know. when you think of yourself in those regards, it's hard to keep you down. the bitch slept around on you, so what? YOU'RE F'ING AWESOME!!! you'll find someone else! and you'll know when you find her, too, because she'll look you in the eyes and go "YOU'RE F'ING AWESOME!!!" *edit* that's one less distraction from modding
She's gonna go out with her new guy on Saturday and I swear I'm going to f*** my brains out on Saturday and I'll phone her on Sunday and tell her. I bet that'll piss her good. I don't really know what I want. I do want to be friends but I want to give it back to her a bit before that ... Is that mean ? I don't think so ... I've been far to nice until now. And please don't think I'm an ass. I'm not like this at all, but I want, no need to get back at her. Cheers Fred
