Windows mech 4 - black knight, am i imagining things?

or is black knight like 300 times harder than mechwarrior 4?

im getting owned into the ground, my inventory keeps getting taken off me, i slam 2 awesomes and 4 thors and 2 shadowcats into the ground, and i get like 1 chasis and 1 clan lbx 10 autocannon......

not to mention the fact that my heavyest mech is currently a thor, and im fighitng 4 or 5 thanatos's (my personal favorite) but they got taken off me when the stiener assault mechs nail the base.

GAH!!!