I hope he's just keeping his seat warm Neg rep-worthy if ever I saw it. OP, all the very best - I believe in you even though I don't know you and I know you can do it. It's a huge deal and a huge challenge, but you will keep seeing those milestones pass with a little willpower. Speaking as someone who has also had a substance addiction problem in the past (although not to alcohol ) I am happy to say that I made it through the other side, and have been completely clean now for just about six years. Depression/anxiety tend to get better once you've addressed the root cause, and alcohol or drugs are just a fuel for these problems so taking them out of the equation makes things a lot easier. Take things one step at a time though, dropping nicotine is part of the master plan but it can wait until you've stopped thinking about the ale. Socialising away from bars and hobbies are both great pieces of advice as well.